Me

2005-02-15T11:59:00.000-08:00

Hello,

I am a divorced mother of two beautiful girls. However, what "normal" mother does not think they have the most beautiful children in the world. I have a 3 year old tornado and a 5 year old genius going on 105.

I have tried to blog before but was in a depression and even though writing is good for the soul....my soul just was not feeling it. Now I am soulful and definitely feeling it.

My life is good right now. I am on my way to obtaining my Masters. Looking for a better job, more money most of you know the routine. I actually make decent money but raising two children without child support it takes making great money or good money with the ability to penny pinch. I do not have the ability to penny pinch. Don't get me wrong, I do not splurge or anything I just can't penny pinch. I am baaaaaad with money. The last time I bought anything was a month ago and that was a pair of work out pants and two sports bras. I bought them with a gift card I received for Christmas. I purchase my girls clothes but they grow every other minute so I have to continue to buy stuff for them. My main problem was eating out. I have finally stopped that and got on an eating change and have not bought lunch at work in 3 weeks. So I am working on that.

Trying to buy my first house in 01/06 and I have to save EVERY penny I get. Currently it is not difficult. When I get set on a goal I reach it. Now getting set on the goal is my problem. THAT takes me awhile.

I am a 33 year old divorced mother of two living at my parents house. Now I was married living in an apartment but in a single phrase. I MARRIED A LOSER. Yes I know I am a loser for marrying him but I changed that. He can't change. Anyway, we moved back in with my parents when my first daughter was 2 and were suppose to be on a plan, well my ex-con-artist left us high and dry. I mean I kicked him out but he squandered everything we had. So I stayed with my parents until 3 months before my second child turned 1 and my first child turned 3. We stayed there for 1 years and then I was robbed and never spent another night in the apartment and moved back in with my parents. I was on the state for awhile. I fought that as long as I could but I could not get a place of my own with out it so I caved in. It helped and like I said we had a place of our own for 2 years.

After the robbery I moved back home, got off the state and now I am saving every penny I get so in 01/06 my girls and I will have our very own house.

I had a few jobs during that marrying, child birthing, divorcing time of my life. I had to quit one because I was working nights, alone, pregnant and lifting heavy stock. I was married and my husband (ugh that give me the shivers when I say it...yuck) was busy pursuing his dream not contributing a damn cent to anything. Hell asking him to bring a gallon of milk took his fat ass 2 days to actually get it to me. Hell by that time I had built my own damn dairy farm. Anyway, I was laid off of two, quit one and now I am where I am now.

My ex-cheated on me and he has a child out there that is 1 month younger than mine but by the time I found out I was done with him so I really did not care. He is 31,000 plus behind in child support and he has asked me to write a letter to reduce the amount and suspend the back child support. I told him that I finished writing the letter before he finished asking the question and overnighted to the courts.....yea right!!!

The Judge stuck it to him because he did not show up for court and he had abandoned me and my babies.

The divorce has been over 3 years ago. I divorced him 4 months after I had my second child. I am not bitter, (at least not anymore) I used to think of all kinds of ways to get at him but today I am a stronger and better person because of it. Me and my girls will be okay. GOD is good to us......All of the time.

Whutizit

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